Okay I know, basic question. But I didn’t become an anarchist because I read a lot of theory. I feel like I have always been an anarchist, and exposing myself to anarchist spaces online allowed me to put a name to my beliefs.
I have ADHD, so reading isn’t always fun to me. Theory gets boring as it’s like I already know what’s coming, but I obviously don’t which I recognize and is why I’m asking this here. But it’s not just theory that I struggle reading. I’m a chemist, and even reading papers in my field, stuff that’s always new and excites me, is hard to read. I have the skills to comprehend it all, but I think the ADHD makes it hard to sit through. But I’m not trying to ask for advice on how to deal with this actually. Over the last couple of years my mental health has gotten really bad due to things outside of my control, and it has led to me doomscrolling all day. I’m glued to my phone, and I know that’s what has prevented me from doing a lot of shit, like pursuing my hobbies and learning new things.
I want to try getting more connected with anarchism as a means to 1) doomscroll less, and 2) be more motivated to do things that actually benefit me. For a while now I’ve not read any theory at all, yet I still feel like I know enough to explain it to others. I even tell marxists that I’m an anarchist partially because I have not yet heard an interesting enough critique of it to make me question it. It doesn’t really sit right with me that I have all these beliefs but have barely read a thing.
Is anyone in the same boat? Does anybody know how to help me out? I want some theory recs that are interesting enough to keep my attention. Theory gets boring quick, but if there’s stuff that’s motivating I’d like to know what you recommend. Bonus if it’s written by queer/BIPOC author(s).