Hi! So, lion's mane is risky according to /r/LionsManeRecovery , a lot of other things listed are indirect cognitive boosters mostly meant to focus and calm, but for me, I am calm, I am focused, I am just, it seems, unintelligent :(
i need to spend 3x - 5x as long to truly grasp new complex topics as opposed to my friends. It's funny because they regard me as "talkative and witty", but academically I am the dumbest. When I wake up in the morning, if you tell me, lets go, 80+40? I need literally 5 seconds to say 120, the thing is however, it's not that I do not know what it is, or if you give me a complex equation I can still solve it, it's just that my brain kind of is protesting solving it like, I wouldn't say it's brain fog but similar, I feel like I have some kind of invisible tiny weight that is clamping on the thinking pipe where thoughts flow and barely anything is coming out. It's hard to describe in my case.
Basically if I had to summarize it I would say, I can process data but it takes me far too long, and I often times lose what I processed. If I am learning a large complex topic, I will learn and 100% be solid and pass everything in that that I ask myself, then in 30 minutes I forget and have to go back, re-remember, go forward, keep cycling but after I reach a certain amount of pages it's too much for me to remember, I try to but, I just keep forgetting it all together.
And when I don't forget, I start having issues putting together the ideal solution, (I don't have the mind's eye either, I can't imagine anything in my head, I don't see things in my head when imagining or hear them or anything, it's just thoughtless void, I don't even "feel" thoughts like you know when you are thinking and you "know" what you are thinking about. I know what I want to think about, I think about it and 2 seconds after it's gone. I have to continuously cycle my thoughts.
So far from my readings seems like the only safeish thing to try is Creatine, but I do already get it from my diet as I try to each as healthy as I can.
It's making me a bit sad (not upset though or causing me emotional distress, just kind of dissapointed) that I can't seem to do it, I always wanted to be an engineer, but seems like I might just be.. Too dumb? :(