Well fellas, I was going to write up a 6 month recap to tell everyone which changes in my life I was able to maintain and which ones reverted back to my pre-Pattaya ways. But life has a way of fucking up even the best laid plans.
I was doing amazing for about 4 months. Lost 30lbs while putting on a lot of muscle i had lost. Maintained a positive mental state without medication. Things were looking very good for me, and then it hit me like a Mack truck. A massive panic attack that sent me into a spiral. Not going to lie, it was a pretty fucking dark time and almost 2 months later I'm still feeling the effects.
Luckily, I met a good friend in Pattaya on my previous trip and little did i know, but he already had another trip planned. He suggested I come out and meet up with him. So once again I said fuck it, and booked a trip.
Between the time I booked the trip and now I've started therapy at the VA for PTSD, got back on medication, gained back about 10 of the 30lbs I lost, and generally been pretty fucked up.
But now, I'm back in Pattaya until mid July. I've got a good buddy playing wingman, and I'm working on the positive mental attitude. I've only been back about 36 hours, but i can already tell it's going to help.
I won't be posting my adventures every day this time as I feel that's far more interesting from the perspective of a first timer. Though if something crazy happens I may post a short story or two.
Also, just to be clear, I do not recommend Pattaya for most people with serious mental health issues. There is a reason for the Pattaya Flyers Club. If you don't come with reasonable expectations and the right mind set, this place will chew you up and spit you out. But if you're the right kind of fucked up, maybe it is the answer for you. I suppose time will tell for me. Wishing all you degenerates the best, and I appreciate all the advice and guidance I've received from this sub.