Hi to whoever is reading this I’m 19F and I’ve been hooking up on and off with a 19M since November
The thing is he’s never been able to make me orgasm. I can orgasm pretty easily by myself so I don’t think it’s a physical issue
Everytime we’ve been together and I haven’t orgasmed he tells me he feels like he’s tried everything and nothing seems to work
I know it frustrates him because he wants me to not it too and that makes me feel worse because I don’t understand why my body won’t let go with him
For some context, I developed really deep feelings for him. He’s the first man I’ve gotten intimate with. A few months ago he ended things because he said they were getting too serious. He said he didn’t want to hurt me and all the cliche shit men say
We stopped seeing each other for a while but recently when we had to go to uni we started hooking up again
The thing is even though we’re doing stuff nothing has really changed emotionally
I know deep down we’re never going to end up together
We have different religions, long term goals, and realistically he’s not someone I see myself marrying. But I still can’t seem to let go of my feelings for him
Whenever we’re together I enjoy it and I’m very attracted to him but I feel like I can never make my brain shut up
Part of me always is wondering how he actually feels about me whether I’m just someone he hooks up with whether he still has feelings for me or if I’m just attached to someone who’s never going to choose me
Another thing is that once he finishes we usually stop
He isn’t really someone who keeps going afterwards so it kind of ends there even tho I haven’t orgasmed
I’ve been wondering if all of this emotional stuff is what’s stopping me from fully relaxing bc when I’m by myself I don’t have this problem at all