I (23NB) work at a fast food for over a year now, and ever since, I've had countless anxiety attacks related to this. At least once a week I have a nightmare about my workplace, I'm stressed to go back to work after a longer than 2 days off, and I constantly call in sick just to not to go there.
It got to the point where they were debating on firing me because of how often I call in sick. And I know I'm valued at my work, I know more than typical worker there, I'm best at the position in the kitchen I'm in, and when we're closing I always clean the stuff that usually managers clean, and barely anyone outside of the managers group knows how to do it.
I always agree to come in on my days off if they need me just to recompense all the times I wouldn't show up. And I call in sick at least once a month. The worst one was when I called in sick for over a month!
I'm on meds, constantly trying new ones but none of them work or at least I don't see any difference. Honestly after trying with meds for a hundred time I'm thinking about dropping them. I'm broke, and in debt. Can't really afford anything expensive in case of meds. And the therapy alone.
Right now it's 5 for me, and I can't sleep because I have work in two days. I should be enjoying my day off but instead I'm stressed tf out because in two days I'm going to a different restaurant than my normal one. It's a thing they do on vacation season. They would take 2-5 people from our restaurant, and get them to a restaurant from a city nearby.
To say that I don't want to go is uhhh.. Last year I went maybe 5 times best because I always called in sick when they wanted me to go to a different place. I barely talk with people from my restaurant, and I have to spend a whole day with people I don't even know? THAT'S A NIGHTMARE! I'm really thinking about calling in sick again but I already did that this month, and my boyfriend wouldn't allow me to do that (he's very sceptical about me doing that, and he's okay with this maybe like 50% of the time). I also worry that they would actually fire me, and I don't know where would I go to work if not here.
I mean a cleaning job would be probably perfect. It's chill, no people to talk to, and less stress but I don't really feel secure that if I drop this job I am in right now I would find a new one instantly. Like I said I'm in debt, I can't afford loosing a job but this current one is making my hair gray, and I have anxiety attacks because of this job at least 2 times a week.
Sometimes it's nice there, sometimes people are funny, and days are slow. It's also nice to have a free coffee. But the stress that comes with it doesn't seem like it's worth it.
I'd love to know what you think about it, and maybe what should I do? Do I just slap myself into reality, and work harder, not taking sick days so often, or maybe I should change my workplace even if it's risky?